by Rory Pridinham » Tuesday 20 June 2006 2:54:19pm
Okay - Here it goes
I live in Canada, and I have size 11 feet WIDE - you know how hard it is to find shoes that fit?
Besides that, I'm 5'11" tall and weigh around 211 pounds - most of which is on my behind and thighs and stomach.
I'm not worried about how I look due to the excess weight, it's just that in today's world trying to find clothes that fit and look good is tough - that's why I'm pushing myself to exercise more and eat a little less.
I've already lost 15 pounds - slowly over the past year. What kills me is the waiting - i like to see results right away.
I've never been able to go to a beach or a party without feeling self conscious because my clothes don't feel right or sometimes I just worry about what other people will say (I know I shouldn't, but I do)
I've gone through multiple pairs of pants that have worn out prematurely because my thighs rub together and create tears in the crotch of the pant.
I mean, I know I'm pretty good looking, I'm not conceited or anything, but sometimes when I catch a guy looking at me I wonder "Is he looking at me because he thinks I'm beautiful or is he looking at me because he's appaled at the extra weight around my legs?"
I haven't worn shorts now for more than 10 years, and skirts must come below my knees because they don't look like everyone elses knees.
I know I'm contradictory, but this world is so opinionated that every day I struggle with how I look and my weight. All the girls in college that I talk to are like stick thin, and I feel self conscious around them.
That is not to say that I want to be stick thin. I DO have muscles under all this extra fat, and I'd love to be able to show 'em off.
Anyway, it's nice to see I'm not the only one battling this beast.