by LadySnape » Thursday 1 January 1970 1:00:00am
Chapter Seventeen: Quirrell Returns
Severus Snape invaded her dreams. Professor Kiernan's mind was occupied with lessons and exams during the day, but at night, she had more time than she wanted to think about Snape and Quirrell. And summer holidays were only days away and that gave her even more time to think. She didn't want the time. She was angry with Snape. Angry with him for taking advantage of her when she was so lonely and vulnerable. How dare he do that to her? And how dare that voice in her head tell her, "You know you wanted to. Go back to him."
Professor Kiernan had to avoid Snape for the rest of her days at Hogwarts. She removed the ring and the locket that he had given her and hid them at the bottom of her trunk, rolled up in a pair of old stockings. She could never tell Quirrell whom they were from, so she just hid them. With any luck, Quirrell wouldn't even remember the Light-Up Snake Ring. And he had no idea that she had received a locket from Snape, so hiding it was the best thing to do.
Once the school year ended, Quirrell's letters became few and far between. He also didn't bother going into much detail about his encounters with hags and other creatures and never once mentioned what he had done in the mysterious forest he had seen back in June, like he had promised to. In addition, his letters started out, "Dear Professor Kiernan" and ended with, "Regards, Professor Quirrell", which Professor Kiernan found extremely odd. Also, there was nothing lovey-dovey in the letters at all anymore. She didn't give it much thought. After all, Quirrell would be back in no time and they'd have plenty of time for lovey-dovey words and making up for lost time. She flushed at the thought.
***
One week before Quirrell's return date, Professor Kiernan received her last letter from him. His usually very neat writing was wobbly, lopsided, and extremely difficult to read. There were inkblots all over the parchment and some of the words were smeared. She tried to fix it up with a spell, and was successful, but the letter still made no sense. He had written half-sentences and things like, "Did you know.... what on earth.... I don't know what to do… honestly, you'd think.... should I?"
This worried her a great deal. What had happened to make him write a nonsense letter? She was about to find out.
***
On the day that Quirrell was due to return, Professor Dumbledore asked Professor Kiernan to come and see him after lunch, in his office. Professor Kiernan hoped he wouldn't keep her in there too long. She didn't want to miss meeting Quirrell at the train station, which was due to arrive in less than an hour.
"Madison, please have a seat," Dumbledore offered and Professor Kiernan shook her head.
"No thank you, Albus," she said, her voice high and squeaky with excitement. "Forgive me, but I am just so excited to see Alpheus again. I can't sit still!" she admitted.
Dumbledore smiled and his eyes twinkled.
"Hard to believe he left us a year ago, isn't it?" he said.
"It felt like twenty years to me," Professor Kiernan sighed.
"I am sure it did, Madison," said Dumbledore, nodding. "But you know that old saying? Absence makes the heart grow fonder." he declared.
"Yes, and you don't really know what you have until you say goodbye." she added, smiling.
Dumbledore nodded again.
"So what did you need to see me about, sir?" she inquired, anxious to get on with things. "I have a feeling it has something to do with my schedule, since Alpheus is back to take over Defense once again."
"Yes, you're right," Dumbledore answered. "I was going to have you help out in Potions. For the whole school year. All day.”
Professor Kiernan froze on the spot. She couldn't even speak. Now there was no way in the world she could avoid Snape. She would be with him EVERY day, for the WHOLE day.
"You see," Dumbledore explained, noticing her sudden reaction, "the students didn't do quite so well in Potions this year and I have a strong suspicion that it may have had something to do with your absence as an assistant to Severus."
Professor Kiernan's excitement faded instantly. It was one thing for Dumbledore to tell her where he wanted her, but what about Snape? He wouldn't be thrilled at the idea at all. She swallowed and tried to find her voice.
"And what does Severus have to say about this?" she asked, her eyes becoming very dark.
"Actually, he was the one who suggested it," Dumbledore answered, carefully.
Professor Kiernan felt like somebody had just used the Body-Binding spell on her. She couldn't move. She was furious. How dare Snape suggest such a thing? After what had happened in the dungeon on her birthday...
"Oh, he was, was he?" she suddenly demanded, raising her voice. "Well, what if I don't WANT to assist in Potions?"
Dumbledore looked a little surprised.
"I thought you loved Potions," he remarked. "And I also thought that you and Severus had sorted through your differences. I thought you'd be thrilled at the idea."
"Well you thought WRONG!" she retorted and Dumbledore frowned.
"Madison," he warned. He did not like her tone of voice, nor did he like her attitude.
"I’m sorry, Albus," she sighed and finally her muscles relaxed. "I just... don't really want to assist in Potions this year. I'd rather assist in Transfiguration and Defense."
"But your assistance is not required in those classes," Dumbledore pointed out. "Your expertise in Potions is what is needed most."
"I thought Severus could handle things just fine without me," she said. "He must've told me that a hundred or more times that first year."
"Severus has changed, Madison," Dumbledore told her, seriously.
Professor Kiernan couldn't believe that Dumbledore had used the words "changed" and "Severus" in the same sentence.
"I'd like to talk to Severus first." she finally decided. "If that is all right with you."
Dumbledore agreed and off she went to find Snape. She didn't really want to talk to him, but she had to find out if his intentions were noble and that they had nothing to do with what had happened in his office, two months ago. Besides, why was she hiding in the first place? She wasn't weak, was she?
"I can fight this," she told herself. Snape had just happened to fill a void, temporarily. Quirrell would be there in just minutes and then things would go back to normal.
Snape was in his classroom, making preparations for the first day of class, which was only two days away.
"Severus," she said as she stepped into the room. "Is it true what Dumbledore told me? You want me to assist in ALL of your Potions Classes?"
Snape stood up, but did not move closer to her. His eyes fell upon the slender expanse of her neck and he frowned when he noticed she was not wearing the star-locket he had given to her. The chain she had given him was in full view. He no longer cared who saw it and who didn't.
"Yes." Snape answered, promptly.
Professor Kiernan studied his face for a long time before saying anything.
"Why?" she inquired. "You told me quite frankly a number of times that your class and your way were just fine until I showed up, did you not?"
"Circumstances have changed, somewhat," he declared, keeping his expression sedated.
"Is that really it or does this have something to do with that... that little... fling in your office on my birthday?" she demanded.
Snape approached her, slowly and looked straight into her eyes.
"Is that what it was to you?" he said, softly. "Just a fling? A mindless game? I felt something, Madison," he added, "and I know you did, too."
She backed away.
"It was nothing," she said, quickly. "It should not have happened." She swallowed a lump in her throat and tried desperately to control her racing pulse. "I'll help you in Potions, if you want. But it ends there."
"Does it?" Snape asked, crossing his arms and looking at her with lustful eyes.
"Yes, and if you ever touch me again, I'll kill you, Severus Snape." With that, she turned on her heel and left the room.
Snape remained standing for a very long time then smiled to himself as he sat down and continued with his preparations. He looked at the wall clock and took note that Quirrell's train would be pulling into the station in no less than fifteen minutes. Yes, Quirrell would be back and then the trouble would start all over again.
***
Professor Kiernan was pacing on the platform of the Train Station where Quirrell's train was about to pull in. She had just been to see Dumbledore telling him that she agreed to assist in Potions all year and he was delighted. After that, she ran all the way to the Train Station, her excitement returning.
Moments later, she heard the train whistle, and from around a hill the big red train came charging down the tracks, then slowed down and stopped. Professor Kiernan's stomach was in knots. She couldn't wait to see Quirrell's gorgeous face, amazing smile, sparkling blue eyes and his cute little satellite-dish ears.
The first people to step onto the platform were the train officials. They started unloading the luggage, trunks and suitcases and cages with owls and some with cats. After that, they began opening the doors, helping people off the train. Professor Kiernan scanned the crowd for Quirrell. But he was nowhere in sight. She watched the people, wizards and witches, collecting their luggage and animals and could not seem to find Periwinkle or Quirrell's trunk and suitcases at all. Soon, the crowd was gone along with the luggage and the train left the station. All that waiting, all that excitement and no sign of Quirrell. Had he missed the train?
Professor Kiernan sat down on a nearby bench, close to tears. Where on earth could he be? Had something happened to him? She was worried. What if he was dead?
"Oh, please, Alpheus, please be alive," she prayed. "Please only be late."
Professor Kiernan sat there and waited, even though the next train wouldn't arrive until the following day. She waited for hours, until Hagrid came to get her.
"Professor, here yeh are," said Hagrid and she was surprised to see him. "It's time fer dinner."
Professor Kiernan didn't move. Fang licked her hand.
"Professor Dumbledore tol' me teh tell yeh that Professor Quirrell arrived an hour ago, by broomstick," he announced and Professor Kiernan jumped up.
"WHAT!" she exclaimed and threw her arms around Hagrid, much to his surprise. "Oh, thank Merlin! I thought he missed the train or that he was dead!" She let go of Hagrid, finally and was beaming. "Why did he fly here? Why didn't he take the train?" she began asking these questions very quickly and Hagrid didn't have a chance to tell her that he didn't know. "How does he look?" She finally stopped.
Hagrid hesitated.
"It's no' really my place ter say," he finally replied, scratching his head. "He's uh.... different, that's fer sure."
"What do you mean?" she inquired.
"Yeh'll see," he declared and they headed back to Hogwarts, then to the Great Hall for dinner.
Quirrell's chair was back in place between Professor Kiernan and Snape, but it was empty.
"Isn't Quirrell coming down for dinner?" she asked everyone at the table. She couldn't wait to see him again and hug and kiss him and tell him how much she missed him.
"He'll be here shortly," said Dumbledore. "He just went to put his things away."
Professor Kiernan sat down, but was unable to stay still. Any minute now, the love of her life would walk through the doors to the Great Hall, happy to see her. Overjoyed to see her, just as she would be to see him. A whole year had gone by and they had both survived.
The doors opened and finally, Quirrell was there. He came closer to the High Table and Professor Kiernan was shocked to see him wearing a very large, absurd purple turban on his head, looking very nervous and twitching like a squirrel.
"T... t... told you n... not to wait for m..m... me," Quirrell stuttered. His face was paler than usual and he barely took notice to Professor Kiernan at all.
"Nonsense!" Dumbledore expressed. "It is not as though the food will get cold or anything. Have a seat. I believe someone is extremely happy to see you." He smiled.
Quirrell looked at the empty seat between Professor Kiernan and Snape and then looked at Professor Kiernan. Unable to contain her joy at seeing him any longer and despite the fact that he looked ridiculous, she jumped out of her chair, ran around the table and threw her arms around him, crying with happiness.
"I missed you so much!" she cried. "Why didn't you tell me you were flying here instead of taking the train? I was so worried when I didn't see you."
Quirrell was as stiff as a board and he did not return her hug. When she tried to kiss him, he pulled away.
"Professor, I am very t...t...tired," he told her. "Please... don't touch me." His left eye twitched. "It's n... n... nnnnice to be back."
He trotted quickly out of the room and Professor Kiernan had never been more hurt in her life. "Don't touch me" he had said! Why would he have said that? He didn't even say hi, I missed you or I love you. She turned to look at her colleagues, and they all looked just as puzzled as she felt. Why was Quirrell acting so weird?
"He must be really tired, after flying all the way here," Madam Hooch suggested. "I'm sure he'll be back to himself after he gets a little sleep."
Professor Kiernan sighed, a bit relieved at her hypothesis. Of course. He was just tired.
***
It was ten o'clock at night and Professor Kiernan was anxiously waiting for Quirrell to join her in their bedroom. He had gone to his old bedroom to sleep, which seemed odd. But she figured that he probably went there so as not to be disturbed. She knew that at any minute, he would come knocking at the door, looking handsome in his night robes and smiling. Then he would kiss her warmly and take her to bed, wanting to make up for a whole year.
Professor Kiernan was wearing pink baby doll pajamas that she had bought just for the occasion. She was sure that it would knock Quirrell's socks off. She might as well have been wearing nothing at all though, since the nightwear was almost transparent anyway.
Finally, there was a knock at her door. Taking a deep breath and undoing a few of the buttons on her top to expose more of her breasts, she went to the door and opened it, expecting to see Quirrell. But it wasn't Quirrell at all. It was Snape. When he saw her transparent, unbuttoned baby doll nightwear, his eyes grew very wide and he felt his pants tighten around his waist. Thank goodness his robes were thick and heavy, so she would never notice.
Professor Kiernan saw how he was looking at her and she quickly grabbed her silk robe from behind the door and covered herself quickly, scowling at him.
"What do you want?" she demanded, clutching her robe tightly over her front.
Snape leaned against the door frame casually, his expression unchanging.
"I wondered if I could get your opinion on some of the assignments and projects that I've set-up for the fifth year students." he said.
She sighed in exasperation.
"Can't it wait?" she protested. "I'm expecting Quirrell any minute now. And I don't think he'll be too pleased to find you here."
Snape's lips curled into an icy smile.
"Quirrell is in bed," he told her. "In his old quarters."
Professor Kiernan glared at Snape.
"No he isn't." she insisted.
"Yes he is," Snape argued. "I just saw him go in there. Only moments ago."
"Then he'll be here any minute," she said, defiantly. "He's just getting ready... ready for me."
Snape stopped leaning and stood straight again.
"I don't think so," he declared. "You can see for yourself." He put his hand out, inviting her to follow him. She scowled.
"Just wait there." she ordered and closed the door. She quickly slipped into a longer, cotton robe and pink slippers, then joined Snape outside the door. She then followed him down the hallway to Quirrell's old quarters, six doors down. The door was locked.
"Alohomora!" said Snape, waving his wand in front of the doorknob. It clicked to unlock itself and Professor Kiernan gingerly opened it and looked inside.
So Snape was right, after all. There was Quirrell, sound asleep, tucked in his bed, still wearing that horrible turban. The turban he had sworn he would NEVER wear. Now it looked as though he would never take it off.
Professor Kiernan put a hand over her heart, as if she was in pain. He was asleep and had obviously forgotten all about her.
"He's just tired, that's all," she said, more for herself than for Snape. "It was a long journey and he's tired. I'll see him tomorrow night."
She was close to tears as she hurried away, back to her bedroom. Snape glared at Quirrell.
"You idiot!" he said, his teeth clenched. Quirrell didn't even stir. "How could anyone be too tired for her?"
He closed the door and left.
***
After breakfast, Professor Kiernan headed straight for the Defense Against The Dark Arts classroom, after Professor McGonagall had told her that Quirrell had eaten an early breakfast and had said he needed to start preparing for classes. Professor Kiernan was anxious to see him once again. Now that he had slept, perhaps he would be his usual self again.
She found him seated at his desk, STILL wearing the turban! She stepped into the classroom, which smelled very strongly of garlic and she recalled the letter he had written to her about the vampire. Surely he wasn't still afraid of it!
Professor Kiernan held her hand over her nose as she approached Quirrell. The smell of garlic seemed to be even stronger around him.
"Alpheus, this room reeks!" she exclaimed. "You better do something about this smell, the students won't be able to stand it!"
Quirrell looked up, his face twitching.
"And why are you wearing that turban, after you told me you wouldn't?" she inquired.
"I must." declared Quirrell and he stood up.
"Well, you better not wear it at our wedding," she told him.
"W... wedding?" Quirrell repeated.
"Yes," she said as she approached him. "Remember? We're getting married on the 20th of November." She put her arms around him, lovingly.
Quirrell looked nervous and he stepped back, out of her arms.
"B...b..but that's so.... so... c..c...c...close!" he stammered.
"I know," she said. "I was thinking that maybe we should try and get the invitations done today or tomorrow, before classes start. What do you think?"
Quirrell's eyes were wide and full of alarm.
"It certainly is a n...n...nice day isn't it?" he suddenly said, changing the subject and looking out the window. "I should g...go down to D....D.....Diagon Alley to get m....myself a new b... b....book on v...vampires." He looked terrified at the very thought.
"Alpheus, didn't you hear what I said?" she demanded. "I think we should get the invitations ready and send them out as soon as possible."
"I...I... I have to g.. go," he insisted and started to leave. "I n...n...nnneed that book."
Professor Kiernan grabbed the sleeve of his robe to stop him.
"You don't need a book on vampires," she said. "Look." She went over to the filing cabinet, opened a drawer and pulled out two stacks of parchment. "Here are all the letters you wrote me, with all the information about vampires and werewolves and hags and other things that you encountered on your trip." She handed him the first stack of papers and he looked at them, blankly. "And," she went-on, "here's all the information that I recorded myself. All neat and organized." She handed him the other stack and he gave the parchments the same stunned look.
Then, without a word, he took a step towards the fireplace, muttered a "Yes, Master," and threw the parchment into the fire. In a matter of minutes, all the letters, all the records were nothing more than a pile of ashes.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!" Professor Kiernan shrieked. She pulled out her wand to stop them from burning, but Quirrell was quicker and shouted, "Expelliarmus!". Professor Kiernan's wand shot out of her hand and straight across to the other side of the room.
She glared at him, her eyes filled with tears.
"What is wrong with you?" she demanded. "What the hell happened to you out there? ANSWER ME!"
"P... professor..." he began, his left eye twitching.
"Professor?" she shouted. "Whatever happened to Madison?"
"Good question," he said, silently, without stuttering. "What DID happen to Madison?"
He walked towards her slowly, his eyes narrowed, his wand pointed straight at her. Her wand was still lying on the other side of the room, beyond her reach. Quirrell looked as though he were about to kill her and there she was, wandless. There was only one thing that she could do. Transfigure herself.
Quirrell pounced only a moment too late. Professor Kiernan was gone! Just in time, she had transfigured into a very tiny animal and had hidden herself beneath Quirrell's desk. He couldn't see her, she blended in with the floor.
"Damn!" he cursed. "You can't hide forever!"
"And just who might you be talking to, Quirrell?" said a cold voice in the doorway. It was Snape.
"N....n... nobody, Severus," Quirrell answered, quickly. "I...I.. was just l...l...l...leaving."
He hurried out of the room, past Snape and out of sight. Snape remained in the classroom and must have noticed the awful garlic smell, because he, too, covered his nose. He looked around the classroom, then suddenly noticed a spider on the floor at his feet.
"Well, well," he said. "Was Quirrell talking to you?"
Snape smirked and looked at the brown spider a moment longer, then lifted his foot and stepped on it. The moment his foot hit the floor, he looked up and saw Professor Kiernan standing there, her arms crossed. She was frowning.
"Would you mind getting off my foot?" she spat.
Snape looked down at his foot and realized only then that he had stomped on Professor Kiernan's boot. He quickly took his foot away.
"Pardon me," he said. "I was trying to kill Quirrell's friend Mr. Spider," he explained. "Now where did he go?" He looked around for any sign of the spider.
"You mean Miss Spider, Severus," she said, smiling. "That spider happened to be me."
"YOU!" Snape exclaimed in disbelief.
"Yes and you almost killed me!" she retorted.
Snape just stared at her. So she was an Animagi! A fox, then a spider. And not just any Animagi. By the looks of it, she couldn't turn into just one animal, but rather any animal she wanted! For the first time, Snape realized just how powerful she really was.
Professor Kiernan picked up her wand, which was on the other side of the room and looked at Snape.
"You can close your mouth now," she shot at him. "Yes, I am an Animagi. And not just your average one, either."
She walked out of the room, leaving Snape there, thinking very hard.
***
"Who is that woman?" asked Quirrell's turban in a very weak and tired sounding voice.
"Nobody, Master," answered Quirrell. "I've never seen her before. I don't know who she is."
"She certainly seems to know you," said the turban. "Don't lie to me, Quirrell. Don't be a fool. Lies do not go unpunished. Now tell me, WHO is she?"
Quirrell was trembling. He knew who it was. He didn't want to get punished, either.
"She is the woman I was going to marry, Master," Quirrell replied. "But now that I am with you, I no longer need her."
"Do you love her?" the turban inquired.
Quirrell shrugged.
"I did at one time," he admitted, then began to sob. "I think... I think I still do...Master!"
"Don't be a fool!" the turban warned. "Love makes you weak! What did I tell you about love and hate, good an evil?"
Quirrell took a deep breath and recited: "There is no love or hate, no good or evil. There is only power and those too weak to seek it."
"Very good, Quirrell," said his turban. "Now I have an idea. We could use that woman."
Quirrell was surprised.
"She could prove to be very useful indeed," said the turban, thoughtfully.
"Tell me, Master!" Quirrell pleaded. "Before you're too weak to speak again."
"She could give us a son," said the turban. "Someone to follow in my footsteps, to raise like me. To do my bidding until I get my strength back."
"But she'll never allow-" Quirrell began.
"Find a way or you'll be very sorry." the turban threatened him.
"Yes, Master." he declared, quivering.
***
End of Chapter 17