umm, id like to say first that any long blank space marks a new poem
(this ones for the teachers)
The years you spent in training,
The endless hours with us,
The difficult lessons
And long days grading papers
The discipline
And caring
The strengths you represent
And the countless things
I haven’t mentioned
Aren’t exactly credited.
But I can say,
That they are appreciated
By
At least
One…
Me.
It’s a burning feeling,
in my chest
Filling my mind
Making my fists clench,
My muscles tighten,
And my eyes narrow.
My Smile fades,
As yours grows wide
Uttering the words
That cause a different kind of heartburn
As these tears run down my cheeks,
You stand by,
Just watching.
When I don’t respond,
To what you ask,
You walk away
No comfort
And all of this pain,
Is spilling out.
You smirk
Let out a laugh
So I try
To hold it in
But it just gets worse
And worse.
It keeps building up
And then,
I explode
And the cycle
Starts over again
If only you listened,
If only you paid attention!
Maybe then you understand
You wonder why I do stuff
But just listen,
For once, SERIOUSLY!
Take a Freaking five minutes out
Of you “busy” day
And pay attention to someone
Other than yourself
And then, Maybe,
You’d get it.
But if you cant do that…
Than stop making up reasons,
And stop pretending you know
Why I am, Who I am…
I let you down,
Day after day
Week after week,
Month after month
And im trying.
I’m not the best I can be,
But I’m trying.
And it’s not good enough
It wasn’t yesterday,
And it probably wont be tomorrow.
So I think I might go now….
Then,
There might be
One less disappointment
For you to deal with
I can feel it
Coming over me again
Waiting till im weak,
Then creeping in.
It comes along,
It cripples me.
And I am sorry
It makes me sorry.
Guilt,
To me,
You've made your purpose
Crystal
Clear
now, after editing tha one, and reading my signature on neopets "Labels are for... [text here] Pepsi Bottles" it got me thinking
No matter how hard
You try to conform
You'll always fall
Back into line
With everyone else
Mad,
Coz you can't "fit in"
But if you look,
You've already got a label
Everyone's got it
But it's the best of all.
The universal label:
Original
and then i was thinking about stuff that happened a while back.................niov.dec last year i think...
I really thought I loved you,
nd I can't tell you
What happened to me.
I couldn't bear to hurt you,
But letting you on
Was hurting you more.
You deserve better
Better than me.
So I let you go
Cut you loose.
But you came back
And I refused you.
Every now and then, I have regrets
But it was
for the best
I promise
I did it for you
Please,
Just...
Believe me
You're better off
Without someone
Like me
and another.... you can stop at any time you know??
I've had a lot of people ask me
If I'm happy all the time
I simply smile and reply
"Just about"
But most of me
Is a masquerade
Not even I
Can see me anymore
I've lost track of who I am,
And who I was
I know my name...
Sure.
But that's nothing;
What I've let myself become
Is killing me
I'm wihering away inside
Just leave me,
Please
I can't let you catch
The disease I've created
Within