by Ms. Elsewhere » Tuesday 11 August 2009 2:46:23pm
Ouki sat for a moment. She turned to look at herself in the mirror. Her mouth was red and her hair was a mess. She pulled at it and wrapped it around her neck, trying to press it straight. Then she rubbed her face, and hopped off the bathroom bench. She wandered out of the bathroom and spotted Damien sitting on the couch. She stood there, and she felt something inside her snapping. She walked like a zombie over to one of her bags and pulled out a very sharp knife. Then she turned and called out to Damien. He looked up just as she held the knife up to her arm and cut it, causing blood to pour out. Damien stood up abruptly, but Ouki put the blade out defensively.
"I remember..." she said, watching Damien as she held the knife out at him. "How much I wanted to die from all the things I had done, and from all the things that had been done to me..." the cut was deep and blood was dripping loudly onto the floor. "And I messed myself up pretty bad, thinking that it was all wrong, but it wasn't me, baby, it wasn't me...it was them. So you know what I did?" her eyes were wild with nostalgia. "I left. After years of punishing myself, and putting up with the sick things they did to me... I walked out. " She looked at her arm and at her knife. "Damien, you're the only thing that has felt good to me my whole life. Since then, everything has been pain, constant hurt and pain, and it was exciting, it was a thrill, it made my blood boil.... And I thought I felt good. Please know that I cannot live without you and what you do for me. The only way back is this." she pointed to her arm, the blood was pooling around her. She blinked once, and then collapsed to the floor.